The uninteresting ramblings of an anonymous girl in an overly connected world. My random, boring life in Korea. Thinking "out loud" through writing is the expression of choice.

If you REALLY want to find love with a man, then every single DAY, you MUST be practising heart openness.


You MUST be practicing relaxing your facial muscles when you tense up out of fear.


You MUST practice connecting not just with MEN, but with human beings.


You know that though, don’t you?


I know you know that, deep down.

—Renee Wade, The Feminine Woman email newsletter

On Periods: Let’s put this shit to bed right now: Women don’t lose their minds when they have period-related irritability. It doesn’t lower their ability to reason; it lowers their patience and, hence, tolerance for bullshit. If an issue comes up a lot during “that time of the month,” that doesn’t mean she only cares about it once a month; it means she’s bothered by it all the time and lacks the capacity, once a month, to shove it down and bury it beneath six gulps of willful silence.

Shakesville: Feminism 101 (via andotherdoublemeanings)

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Nice. Good perspective on this!

ladyfaceshai:

norsegays:

astrolope:

People being angry about ~dem gays~ on Target’s Facebook.

I just want to give my two cents on this and tell you a story.

A couple weeks ago, I was hired at Target. I have a job at Target. Not a big deal right?

It is a big deal because i’m a transman.

It doesn’t take a genius to conclude that it’s hard for me, my brothers, and sisters to get a job. There are legal restraints regarding the job and if you don’t pass, it’s hard to be taken seriously at a job interview.

Right on the application, it asks what your preferred name is. It also asks if there is anything that target should know. I put the fact that I am a transman, expecting not to get a call because usually when you put that down, people will throw out the application. I got TWO interviews.

At the interview, they asked me about it. I told them I am on hormones and they told me that they didn’t care. Not in the sense that they don’t emotionally care, but that it didn’t matter. I was male and that’s all that mattered. They also told me that they give sex same couples benefits in states that do not recognize them as a married couple.

At my job orientation, I was not misgendered once. Even my supervisors who weren’t sure of my gender avoided pronoun use, which I found only happens when you’ve had pronoun training. They gave me a name tag with my preferred name and didn’t ask questions. I felt safe and respected, which is huge for a trans* person.

TLDR: Target is amazing not just for the LGB, but also the T. Shop there for the rest of your life.

TARGET, you’re doing it RIGHT!! I forgive you for that credit card debacle we had last summer.

My previous employer gave me the privilege to work with some awesome trans people a few years back!

I need to remember this one.  I really want to use it sometime.  But I am too nice.  So they have to be doing something reallly bad for me to use it. 

I need to remember this one.  I really want to use it sometime.  But I am too nice.  So they have to be doing something reallly bad for me to use it. 

(Source: hustleinseoul)

I just mixed coconut oil with peanut butter and put it on a digestive biscuit.

Survey

1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?

yes
2.When did your last hug take place?
Sad to say not sure, but I remember a nice hug from my male friend last Saturday
3.Are you a jealous person?
Yes, I think so, but not to an extreme.
4.Are you tired right now?
Yes!
5.Do you chew on your straws?
Sometimes
6.Have you ever been called a tease?
Not to my face, but maybe. 
7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
No
8.Do you cry easily?
If I am feeling really tired frustrated or vulnerable I will cry.
9.What should you be doing right now?
“Taking a rest”
10.Are you a heavy sleeper?
No
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
Yes I could, my only 6 month relationship just ended.  Now the question is can I last in a relationship more than 6 months. 
12.Are you mad at someone right now?
Only myself.
13.Do you believe in love?
Yes
14.What makes you laugh no matter what?
Funny dog pictures. 
15.Who was the last person you talked to?
Korean co-teachers.
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
I am starting to like someone…but don’t really get butterflies because he isn’t making much of a clear indication that he likes me or would be able to be with me.
17.Will you get married?
Oh god, I hope so. 
18.When was the last time you smiled?
When Ocean of Starlight mentioned me!  (Haha we are officially Tumblr nerds I guess ;P)
19.Does anyone like you?
Potentially three people. 
20.Do you secretly like someone?
Yes, but they live in Seoul. 
21.Who was the first person you talked to today?
Said good morning to co-teachers.
22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
My friend that I haven’t seen in person in almost 5 years.  I still think I could tell her anything. 
23.What are you NOT looking forward to?
Co-teacher’s open class on Thursday.  At least its not really me who is being evaluated, but I have to help make my co-teacher look good.
24.What ARE you looking forward to?
So sappy but, cuddling with a guy I like…and watching The Great Gatsby…kkk
25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
He didn’t tell me until after he dumped me.  And then it was in the past tense “we really loved each other” Not sure if it counts…
26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
I would freak out and run away crying, especially if it was a foreign girl because then his whole reason for breaking up with me would be a dirty nasty lie and even worse slap in my face. 
27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
I guess I will still be here in a year. 
28.Are you a forgiving person?
Almost always, if I really care about the person.
29.How many TRUE friends do you have?
I take true to mean that they will always support me.  I would say 8 of my female friends fit into this question. 
30.Do you fall for people easily?
I only ever “fell” for someone one time, and even then it wasn’t that easily.
31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?
No
32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Umm, actually a weight loss/vitamin supplement (being honest here)
33.Who was the last person you drove with?
My male friend in Seoul…drove me around Seoul for a total of like 3 hours.  It was probably one of the best car rides I ever had. He’s really sweet :D  (ohh umm…maybe that is kind of making me “fall” for him.  I feel different about him than I did before…)
34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
12:00.  Got home from Seoul at 11:00
35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Yes
36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Myself
37.Can you live a day without TV?
Yes
38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
When I saw how expensive flights to the states are in August.
39.Three names you go by..
Teacher…seonsangnim…ssaem ;0
40.Are you currently in a relationship?
No
41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
God, I am going to have to say Titanic as well, also Moulin Rouge
42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
No…
43.What’s your current problem?
Having no idea what to do after Korea…kind of freaks me out. 
44.Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes
45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
Don’t wanna do it
46.How many kids do you want to have?
3, two older girls and youngest boy
47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?
Yes
I DID IT!



(Source: impennata)

Just put the coconut oil on my face.  It was kind of a thick paste right now because it is not warm enough to melt into oil.  Not only did it take off my mascara it felt AMAZING on my skin.  If you would have told me before coming to Korea to put oil on my face I would have thought you were crazy, especially because of my history of acne. 

Dumped some cider vinegar in a glass of apple juice.  Damn, that stuff is strong!  I should dilute it a bit more next time.  YOWZERS

My dinner tonight is the following:

Can of tuna, half can of tomatoes, handful of green olives, a bit of salsa, bit of mayo, sprinkled with vinegar and random spices to taste.  

Dipping tortilla chips in it.  Tried it cold and now I put it in the microwave to try it hot.  I feel like this would be a decent low carb meal if I actually had some lettuce instead of tortilla chips.  Also trying to quick soak some chickpeas, but maybe I will use them another time.  I’m hungry now. 

Iherb purchase is here! Have to get myself back on track after this crazy weekend.  Interested to see how taking some of this vinegar every day will make me feel.

Iherb purchase is here! Have to get myself back on track after this crazy weekend. Interested to see how taking some of this vinegar every day will make me feel.

anoceanofstarlight:

Crying.

I love all these healthy food photos!!

anoceanofstarlight:

Crying.

I love all these healthy food photos!!

(Source: foodopia)

Whoops. Just was told I did some stupid things on Saturday and hurt my friend’s feelings. Shit…